I realize that this whole Radvent thing is supposed to make me feel better by reflecting on happy times, but as you can tell by my posts, I've had kind of a rough year. Even 5 years ago, I was having a rough time, lol. Sometimes it feels like my entire life since I graduated high school has been just one big rough time. I'm sorry if I've been a bit of a downer in these posts. I hope to have some happier blogs come up. I hope I get the chance to tell you the good things that have happened in my life as well, not just the crappy things that have happened. We'll just have to wait and see :)
I realize especially my last post was pretty heavy, and I'm sorry for that. Music means a lot to me, and I have a song for almost every emotion that I could possibly feel, which is why it was easy for me to find songs that fit this past year. Actually, I referenced a couple of playlists that I have created this year while creating the list, most notably one called Yup which I created right after K and I broke up which was full of 62 my depressed songs, as well as a playlist entitled Manic/Depressive which I made when I was feeling a bit better, but still upset about the break up, which contains 44 songs. I'm actually listening to Manic/Depressive right now, since the post I wrote a little while ago kind of made me want to listen to it. It contains depressing songs, but also some happier songs, as I was feeling a mix of things when I created it. I was still depressed, but I was also feeling a bit better, and so that playlist reflects that. Don't worry, I do also have a playlist entitled For When I'm Happy Again which I hope to feel well enough to listen to soon, and it contains 66 songs, so it beats both my depressed and semi-depressed playlist, lol. There's really just one more thing I feel I need to do in order to be able to listen to that playlist, and I'm not really afraid to do it, I just haven't found a good time to do it yet. Hopefully within the next few days I'll find a good time to deal with that, and then on to For When I'm Happy Again :)
Anyways, I just wanted to comment and say that I realize my posts have been kind of heavy, and I'm sorry for that. I'll try to keep it happier from now on and if I feel the need to write about how crappy I'm feeling, I'll keep it to my other blog.
I love you all :)
~Christine
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